I read 1st Chronicles 25.

I was a chorister in a church for many years. I was also a dancer in a school club called Lucianos for approximately 4 years. The only difference between both periods was the audience. At certain times, people who raised up holy hands. At other times, younger people singing along to the songs I choreographed. At some times I was told that I blessed some while at other times I was told that I was 'correct'.
But how was I inside? I was the star, the one who could sing and bring down heaven, the one that put some 'ish' into the dance. It was all about me but I was empty. This was me..

The lights were the same, the pause before that move, the crescendo.... The 'sweet part', the crowd mover et al were present in both settings....and now I read 1 Chronicles 25.

I didn't understand the verse. I asked Christ why these words are in HIS holy script. I then said a short prayer, thanked God for the internet and went to Matthew Henry's Commentary on line.

'1 Chronicles 25

The singers and musicians.
David put those in order who were appointed to be singers and musicians in the temple. To prophesy, in this place, means praising God with great earnestness and devout affections, under the influences of the Holy Spirit. In raising these affections, poetry and music were employed. If the Spirit of God do not put life and fervour into our devotions, they will, however ordered, be a lifeless, worthless form.'

My worship was without the Holy Spirit and thus a lifeless, worthless form. that was why there was no difference between the choir stage and the open air theatre of University of Abuja. I was empty and now I thank the Lord for more seriousness with my daily devotion.

I thank the Lord for Psalm 139:23-24 and pray that he removes all forms of disbelief from my heart.

Psalm 139:23-24
English Standard Version (ESV)

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart!
    Try me and know my thoughts![a]
24 And see if there be any grievous way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting![b]

The Lord has used the foolishness of preaching to draw men unto HIM. How is your personal Bible study?

Mercy...

Psalm 119:145
I call with all my heart; answer me,Lord, and I will obey your decrees.

How often is this done
How often will my stony heart be one with my creator
Am I not like Judah and Israel in the book of Hosea...the 5th and 6th chapters?

Have never read the book of Hosea but I ask myself.....
Do I come unto the Lord with Cattle and Oxen and leave my heart and soul at home?
Do I love the Lord with all my heart and all my mind and all my soul?
Do I trust in His ways, His decrees, His Statutes and laws, testaments and Judgements?

My lying heart tells me I do but I do not.
Do I call out with all my heart? ..... This deceitful Heart of mine..Do I hide my little light not allowing it to shine?

Do I know YOUR Decrees Lord? Can I know YOUR decrees my God? Do I...... May I....?

How can I know them without you my father? The Son knows You, You glorify the Son, all who come to you must come through the Son that You know and are at One with....

I cannot even clearly remember what I read this morning from Your Holy Script. I cannot remember the first line of Psalm 119:145 or my fighter verse for the week.....

Mercy Lord... Have Mercy on Me... I'm just a saved sinner, a depraved wretch, your adopted child...

Mercy Lord.

.... I haven't written anything in a bit...

Died he for me.....
Amazing Love, how can it be that thou my God didst die for me...

Haven't written anything in a long while... last year dude...

1 Peter 2:24

King James Version (KJV)

²⁴ Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.

My mind drifts to FighterVerses.com. Will I be able to memorize week 42's verse...? Would I be able to always believe the Bible? I looked at the below verses of scripture then remembered...

Ecclesiastes 9:3

This is an evil among all things that are done under the sun, that there is one event unto all: yea, also the heart of the sons of men is full of evil, and madness is in their heart while they live, and after that they go to the dead.

Matthew 15:19 
For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies: 

Romans 3:12 
They are all gone out of the way, they are together become unprofitable; there is none that doeth good, no, not one.

I remembered Friday the 19th of October and Bible Study at Tim's house.
Ephesians 5:1-7 is where we were and I just had to remember that Christ is my Standard, a standard I cannot live up to on my own... I have not read my Bible today....

I will look up and ask my Lord, help me to love you as I ought. Help me to trust you as I should.

I haven't written anything in a long while...

Help me Father... Be merciful unto me, your adopted Son, take away pride from my heart and give me a heart of Flesh.

In Jesus Name,

Amen.